There was a lot of weeping that week.  It had been the longest 9 months of my life. The exhaustion had completely overtaken me, and yet the new school schedules and homework and meals and children’s needs drove me on. Labor seemed like a relief. A hospital stay, a chance to sit still ….finally. We […]

I dreamed it. And it scared me. Scared me right into humble submission to every long, hard, fatigued, feeling-sick day. Scared me into waiting patiently.  Scared me into receiving whatever I needed to learn and do in this hard waiting process. It has been a tough 4 1/2 months. More negative emotions, failures, despairing moments, […]

“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.” Matthew 16:24 “Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. ” John 12:24 I face death […]

Because all I’ve got is a lot of weakness right now. All I’ve got is irritable mood swings. All I’ve got is a lot of failure under my belt. All I’ve got is this longing to be Repunzel and get locked in a remote castle (where I can sleep all day!), at least until this […]

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart….and  your paths will be straight”   Proverbs 3:5-6 There’s nothing that makes my paths more crooked than pregnancy, and the hormones, fatigue and sickness it brings. I plan a course of action, a schedule and an agenda…..and then I don’t have the energy to carry it out. […]